This should always be their smiles. I’m happy to see this. Really. Six years of them not being seen together and then they share a presentation. Wow! Have I said it enough?!?!  This. This is a Yunho I know. Not the other. This is a happy boy. And that… No criticisms… Let me bask in the happiness of seeing them together. I hope there will be more interactions that we can see.
DB5K!!! Rock on!
Credit to the website that had this!!!



I am on edge
On edge
On edge
On edge
That when
your eyes meet
And none can look away
On that day
nothing will be the same…

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*KJJ and JYH MAY meet! Maybe… Same place, but could be not exactly…

KPOP and Me – Park Yoochun



read somewhere that in a little interview for his latest drama, Yuchun said that if his feeling was deep into the other person, he would be able to reveal his relationship.  Is that a dig?  And to whom is it directed to?  YunJae?  LOL!  Or his other half?  Yuchun is… like a double edged sword.  He’s smart with word plays.  And considering his words… I don’t know.  But Yuchun being Yuchun means he’s making a dig AND teasing someone. 
I want to know the private messages that went flying into his phone after that went out!  Wouldn’t you? I think I’ll miss this YunJae fan club President most when he goes for his service. I’m also wondering why his other half is in Hawaii during the time that Yoochun is about to enter the service. The pictures of Junsu are…lonely.  Perhaps Yoochun said, “I don’t want to see you send me to the center. I might cry.”
So Junsu went halfway out into the middle of the Pacific Ocean to “recuperate” from his musical.

But he left with an attention stealing beacon, didn’t he? The orange hair is a great beacon, neh?!?!


A Spill of things TVX2


So, I was reading through the list of Yunho’s songs on his new album,  U-KNOW Y.
I couldn’t help but laugh when I read that one of the titles was “Tattoos and High Heels.”  Well because I know of a certain tattooed person with a height complex.  Not that the person is very short, but the person is rather shorter than… erm… Yunho and his current partner.  Just saying. 
Now, looking for translations to this song has not been forthcoming yet.  And I have no idea what it’s saying.  I don’t think that he’s the one who wrote the lyrics either so I can’t gauge his… content.  But the title totally made me laugh.  Totally.  July 8th as well… Is there a significance?  How about SOMEONE’s 100th day?    Let’s not get SOOO obvious, right?
Ah.  And considering that Jaejoong had put out a mini album before titled Y as if asking a question.  Is this Yunho’s answer… U-KNOW Y.  The thing is, when it was just Jaejoong’s mini album.  We wondered if Y meant “Yunho”.  Because after all, he had first put out “I”. I’m not the only one thinking this either. I’ve seen the pictures of Y and U Know Y juxtaposed next to each other.

So, since we’re on it.  Viki has uploaded episodes of “I Order You”.  While the character that Yunho plays is a jerk (and he plays the jerk well enough), I can’t help but think… “What do people see in this guy?”  I mean face wise.  Something about his face is NOT handsome!  And he’s gained weight, which is why some of the comments were about watching his ‘man-boobs’ more than watching the show.  I noticed that he was more… pudgy in the MV teasers for his first song “Burning Down.”

I think this is his most comfortable role yet… still though, he’s unable to distinguish between when his character is supposedly acting.  His character is brusque, cold, abrupt that even his subordinates slink away after a certain look from him.  But yet, there are moments when he’s sweet (because he’s acting nice).  Now, the problem is that usually when someone does this, there is a tell… a small knowing smirk and not a genuine smile.  So, this part, innocent Yunho probably does not know of and cannot properly convey.  Lady killer he probably is not, despite the tabloids.    Jang Dong Gun could play this role real well, I think. 
However!!!!!  The girl’s reactions in this show covers up this subtle acting foible.   And she does great because the reactions are over the top!  And that’s what keeps me watching.

Although, I swear, I don’t understand why a lot of people say he’s good looking.  At a certain angle, I guess, but when you’re faced with him like that… I don’t know.  He’s just not…  Daniel Day Kim.  Or even Kim Woo Bin. I think that Yunho looks handsome in profile. Full on front and center… Ummm…
The eyes… Yunho’s eyes when he smiles genuinely… Yes.

I think it’s personal preference.  I don’t think JYP is good looking either.  Too much alcohol and tobacco has totally ruined that… 

There are plenty of HANDSOME South Korean actors.  Jang Dong Gun is one.  Lee Phillips also.  And some of their leading men are just… boys next door, good looking sort of, pretty ordinary, run-of-the-mill cute.  Just not devastatingly handsome.   
I’m not even poking at the idols because they’re mostly younger generation.  I’m waiting until they fill out and become men.  Although the boys of 2PM could possibly be contenders there.  Kim Woo Bin is definitely HANDSOME, hands down! 

Then there are the pretty men.  Pretty.  Not Handsome.  Jang Geun Suk is pretty.  G-Dragon for all his brass is pretty.  TOP is Handsome, but still… young… nothing like James Bond (think Pierce Brosnan).  Seungri… he’s the boy next door.  Taeyang is the boy next door that is handsome beyond belief.  He could be the one that makes all the girls in the youth group sigh.  But he’s an approachable handsome. 
Jung Yunho… sometimes, he is handsome… depending on who takes the pictures. 
I hate to say it but he was much more handsome juxtaposed against a pretty member… and it’s not Changmin.

Now, Changmin… hmmm… He’s not handsome either.  He WAS cute.  He’s grown into someone… ummm… I don’t know… He’s grown cold.  There is a certain coldness in Changmin that wasn’t there before.  And it hasn’t dissipated.  The mischief is still there and the know it all attitude.  But when he stands alone or even with Yunho, there is a certain coldness in his demeanor.  And not even his beloved hyung Yunho can take it away.  Now this role in “I Order You” Changmin would be able to pull off the subtleties more so than Yunho has.  Either way, it’s a learning experience for Yunho. 
I think that Changmin is a much better actor than Jung Yunho.  Although Changmin can’t really dance as fluidly as Yunho. 
Am I obsessed with Jung Yunho?  Yes.  And Kim Jaejoong. 
Maybe if they came out like Nate Berkhus and Jeremy Brent I wouldn’t be so obsessed.  However, I see something that others are telling me is not true.  Huh.  So, I keep watching them for signs of… well… letting go… and I haven’t seen it.  Not yet.  Even if they get married for eff’s sakes to girls.  I don’t think I’ll see the kind of… oneness… of wholeness… as I’ve seen when YunJae was together. 
I know I criticize Yunho a lot.  Perhaps because I see the potential.  And I’m waiting.  And waiting.  What am I waiting for?  Who knows!  I’ll know it when I see it.  It’s not that I even hate the boy.  It’s not that.  Maybe I’m a… tsundere.  Ha ha ha!  I’m teasing the man I happen to like to the point that he cries.  LOL!  Yunho’s crying face does garner loads of love, after all.  I just didn’t like the context in which they dropped religiously in TNWM’s journal.  BUT really, that was the writer’s fault and not Yunho who was just doing as he was bid.  I hope.  🙂

The thing is, I like Kim Jaejoong.  Him, I don’t criticize as much.  Then again… what can I criticize about him?  He’s seriously a pretty man.  With Triangle… oooh… he became… WOW!!!!  So, Kim Jaejoong I treasure.  After all, his voice, angry or sad is just too… emotionally expressive.  It draws you in. 
Jung Yunho, I tease. 
If he improves, Yeay!!!!  And if he doesn’t, I’m sure I’ll be that much more disappointed.  I really do have high hopes for Jung Yunho.  I really am a tsundere to this boy, ain’t I? 
The news states that Changmin will be enlisting soon before the end of the year, so that after two years, there will be a comeback of the two.  Do you really believe that? 
I don’t know.  I don’t think so.  Two years is a long time.  When is their contracts up?  Did they sign up again?  I’m wondering.  TVXQ is SM’s current cash cow.  EXO for all their hype isn’t as lucrative as TVXQ even in their reincarnated state as a duo.  But with both of them gone in the military, EXO will start filling up the gap.  There is just one thing.  There are not as many teenyboppers as there was once in SK and Japan.  China is lucrative, but with EXO’s Chinese members dwindling… well…
The economics of K-POP is incredible.  And requires the cooperation of the country’s political machines.
In the meantime, while I’m waiting for all of them to come back as 5, I’ll go and polish up my shooting skills.  I have yet to take the bow and arrow out of the box.  LOL!  Now, where do I go and get some hay bales for targets?  And because I’m evil like that, I’ll need a necessary target.  Whose face should I put up? 
Park Shin Hye.  Don’t ask me why.

He Cried

I read the news that Jung Yunho cried during a concert in Japan. Now, he was feeling emotional, it is reported, because it will be the last concert they’ll do with Japanese fans for a long time. Considering that his enlistment date hasn’t even been told by SM, really?  And this happened just days after Kim Jaejoong went in…

Not one to speculate… Okay I am… But isn’t this a little too coincidental? No access to Jae for 21 months… That’s gotta be lonely…

Keep My Head Down

Keep my head down
And not look up
Keep my head down
And not look up
I want to bury my head in the sand
And not look up
I want to keep my head down
So I don’t see the ugliness
And I won’t feel the shock
And you won’t see the tears streaming down
Just look at my back
If I can just keep my head down
And not look up
The world you know would still exist
No tears to mar those pretty eyes
And scars to hide inside your heart
Let me keep my head down
And not look up
I don’t want to see
The hatred in your eyes
Or the sadness of accusations
Of stupid betrayals and other emotions
I’ll keep my head down
And not look up
I’ll bury my head in the sand
I’ll take it all and give it up
I’ll take your heart and give you up
Let me keep my head down
And not look up
You slam the door
As soon as I leave
I can finally grieve
I’ll take your heart and give you up
Let me keep my head down
And not look up.
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A/N:  LOL!  I was feeling really weird today… and for some reason, I wanted to express that I want to stick my head in the sand and become an ostrich.  I just don’t want to deal with my life as it is right now.  Too much crap coming and I don’t want to deal with anything!  Seriously!  But they have to be dealt with.  Taxes and crap like this.  Hell.
However, the words “Keep my head down” reminded me of TVXQ’s song “Why? (Keep your head down)” and it turned into this.  LOL!  Was I channeling Kim Jaejoong?  Don’t know.  But I swear it’s so perfect a response!!!!!  LOL!
I swear, the intention is sometimes different from the finished product.  Even my poems turn darker than what I had first intended.

Of course, as with any poem, the interpretation resides with the reader. If it resonates with you… Then great!

KPOP and me – YunJae – a rant



This portmanteau of Kim Jaejoong and Jung Yunho’s names seems to evoke many emotions.  Is it because the world sees in them the modern version of Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet?  Or as it were, Yunmeo and Jaeliet?  And their parents and companies the ones that drive them apart?  SMontagues and Capulets-Jes?  My God!  It actually works!  Not that I’m saying C-Jes was the monster of a parent here.  For the Yunmeo and Jaeliet scenario, this works.  🙂
What is it about the two that makes one think they belong together?  What did we see that says they should be together?  Was it those looks?  That hug in MKMF 2008?  Oooh, I swear, I still get goose bumps looking at that particular clip!  It’s one of my favorite images!  Was it the shy, “I love you, Yunho…” from way back in the day instigated by one crazy kid named Shim Changmin? The way they always seem to live in each other’s pockets?  Or the gentle way that Yunho smiles at Jaejoong or the bright smile Jaejoong seems to get whenever he’s around Yunho? Or the awkward, ‘Should I or shouldn’t I?’ question that flits over Jung Yunho’s face as he contemplates feeding Kim Jaejoong with a skewered treat? Was it the skinship? I don’t really know.  But, try as I would like to, I do not see them with anyone else.   I’ve read so many accounts from YunJae shippers and those that disagree.  I’ve read many articles on “Are they?  Aren’t they?” line of questioning.  And watched many videos.  Too many. What is it about Kim Jaejoong’s sad songs that makes me think it has to be about Jung Yunho?  Or that the one and only song that is legitimately acknowleged as Jung Yunho’s own composition and lyrics, “November with Love”, has to be an answer to one of Kim Jaejoong’s emotionally charged other songs?
And those fan fictions!  Holy crap!  Okay, some of them are a little far-fetched even for me(MPreg?  Man, I wish that was true, but seriously?), but the others…  Oh, hell!  I feel like I’m reading about their lives in many dimensions and across time and through the folds of the tesseract (Note:  This is from a Wrinkle in Time.). Albeit they are infused with the limitations of the author’s own culture and experience (some are soooo limited that you can only roll your eyes at them. I mean, waiting until marriage for THAT! Does U-Know Yunho and Hero Jejung really look like the kind of people who would wait until after marriage?  Especially in Korea?  Well, right on, then…). 
(An aside:  There is one LiveJournal site that I really like.  Wish she’d update her story ‘Love in the Ice’ faster.  Beeswaxing is a fan fic writer with an interesting prose.  She has a story called Sleeping Beauty in which Jae gets pregnant (MPreg).  And while this really doesn’t mesh with my idea of okay, she writes the story so prettily that even I can believe in this alternate universe.  Her other verse of ICE and The Tattoist, those two I really liked.  Couldn’t put it down!  I think I had stayed up all night reading them that I only had two hours sleep in one day and went to work still!  Needless to say, I took a 30 min nap during lunch.)
Then there are the fan service other “pairings” out there, but for the life of me, I can’t understand why these “pairings” do not sit well with me.  I do not care for HoMin.  Or JaeChun.  Why?  Because I see these pairings as more brotherly than anything else.  But YunJae or even JaeHo, these two, I can definitely see them as a romantic pair.  So reading about Changmin and Yunho getting married in a fan fic makes me wrinkle my brows.  Same thing with Jaejoong and Yuchun getting hitched.  I sometimes feel like I’m breaking out in hives.  I totally cannot understand why these kind of stories bother me.  It’s fiction, right?  But the images of the people are just not correct together.  At least, in my limited mind they aren’t, which is probably why I cringe and break out in hives. (Which is why I apologize to beeswaxing.  I CANNOT read The Trophy Wife verse.  Two of the pairings that make me break out in hives is there!!!!  JaeChun and HoMin….  It makes me cringe just thinking about the dynamics there… Aaarrgghhhh!  Surprisingly, I was okay with MinSu in the ending of The Tattoist.  Although I usually don’t see them as paired as in my head, Yuchun and Junsu pairs quite well.)
And why is it that even now after 4 years of not being together, there is that niggling hope (perhaps it’s just me) that somewhere, sometime, in some way, these two would find their way to each other in that romantic way and not as ‘brothers’ and ‘best friends’?  Or that if it’s not in this lifetime, they’ll somehow find each other again in another one with a happier ending than what is given them now?  But in this lifetime, why is there a feeling, that having met each other, Kim Jaejoong and Jung Yunho will never be whole without the other?  They’ll go through the motions of living, but within themselves, there will be a void no drink, no other person, no pursuits can ever fill.  And that, while we all go through it, seems like such a tragedy.  That these two souls that seem fated cannot come together because of emotional baggage, the ways of the world, and the society in which they find themselves in. 
But really, why?  Why do they seem to go together like white on rice?  Like ketchup and hotdog?  Like hamburger and fries?  Like coffee and cream?  Like hot chocolate and marshmallows?  They’re okay alone, but better together.  No, wait.  Together, they seem much more special, more than the sum of their parts. 
And so why?  Why is it that this particular pairing seem to linger in fans’ minds?  What is it about the two of them together that seems soooooo… I don’t know… right?  I’d like someone to answer.  It’d be nice to know, because for the life of me, I don’t know, but I can’t seem to look away either.  Why are they so fascinating together?  Is it because we speculate as to whether they’re together or not?  If they were together or not?  I mean, there’s HoMin and I don’t give a… about that pairing… There’s SiChul? That pairing and I don’t have any inclination to read about them or find out about this.  Although Siwon looks very good and certainly, Heech is a very pretty man, still… There is nothing like YunJae in KPop that I’ve come across.  What the hell are they?  And why do they seem so perfect together? And why are they so perfect that they inspire crap loads of stories and pictures like the one above?