About RhB

Philosopher with too much to do, but can't help but think (sometimes over think) and write. A freestyle poet.

Sorry

I am sorry…
Youth was wasted on me
Forgot that you…
Could never forget…
Never forgive…
Never know….
The regret…
The tears shed…
The pain felt…
Because I made a mistake…
I cannot undo…
Cannot ask forgiveness for…
Only atone for…
And never be forgiven for….

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Garden’s Fleeting Beauty

It’s stormy here in Northern Cali. The weather isn’t stable. The wind gusts sometimes, the rain falls sometimes, the sun shines sometimes. But the garden, weedy, in need of care, and sadly neglected has decided to send me love. 

Last year, I planted one rosette. This is now a small tree. Okay, very low bush thing. 

The English lavender sent out bloom spikes, not yet ready to harvest, though. 

Not sure what these are called, but I hope it keeps spreading to become a ground cover. I’ve been waiting years for it to spread. 

But the irises, these come up, year after year. This time, I managed to capture a photo that reminds almost of van Gogh’s painting. 

All too soon these guys will fade. And my garden will return to their derelict looking truth. I should spend more time in it. I really should. 

I should move these to the backyard. Soon. And the bamboo. Since they flowered, I’m unsure if they’ll come back to life soon. I hope so, I miss their stately grace. 

Skies of China

Took a trip out to China. No, it wasn’t too adventurous. It’s a guided tour so we were always on the go. 

Beijing had no clouds, so the temple of heaven… Here you go. 

Moat near the Forbidden city. 

Skies around the Great Wall in Badaling.

I think I liked West Lake and the Tea plantations most.

But I was obsessed with the bridge in Huangshan. At night, the waters are so still and glassy, turning the bridge into something surreal. 

I kept taking many pictures!

I have more to share.

China is a big country and we somehow visited 6 cities. All in a 15 day tour. In the middle of winter. 

In truth, I would visit again during this time. One, we didn’t have to contend with smog. Two, no mosquitoes on the river allowing us to open the balcony door quite wide. Three, the crowds were few and far in between.  
But I do warn that the pearl factory, jade factory, silk factory, and even the tea plantations…. Don’t get taken in by the hype of the infomercials. Our tour guides were pretty nice. They tried to warn us, we just didn’t have enough information to go by that the warnings were sort of like information that got lost in the translation. 

We, Geo and I, bought tea for the story. But in reality we could have had the same tea for less. It is Long Jing Green Tea. The best green tea China has. However, we paid $100 for ours. It wasn’t what they said it was. This was supposedly the Imperial Dragon Well tea. The highly in demand spring tea. The ones picked by virgins only during March, April and May. Only around the area of Hangzhou (West Lake). In the particular village we were in… Mei Jia Wu village. Huh. 

I liked the taste of the tea. It’s clean and bright. Rather like genmacha. 

So I would have been okay with the $50 can. 

But that would have still been too much for it. Because we were there in November. And from what I was reading AFTER the trip, the spring Dragon Well tea was probably all sold out BEFORE it was even harvested. And fetches prices well over the $100 for a small portion. And if you consider how small the region of tea plantations near West Lake, plus factor in the bus loads that go through these plantations… (I counted maybe 20 while we were there)… Then you will understand why we were …well… Scammed… That’s the only word I can say. Buyer beware in China. You should know what you are buying. 

The trip was through Sinorama tours based out of Canada. 

Get a visa for mainland China! Security there is no joke! Your passport becomes your local ID! And its important that you have a valid Visa. 

And when going in winter, bring a mask for the face. Not only for the possible dust and pollution, buy to keep you nose and cheeks warm. Brought mine for the pollution and smog… It ended up being a sensation among our group. 

Bought this online fromChina. I thought I would see more of them being hawked. Nope. 

Ah, well. Maybe in a different city. 

The New American President and what it means

So, he won. This bigot speaking son of immigrants who chooses to think in the abstract and to degrade his opponents by calling them names. Basically, he made a mockery of the institution we call “The American Presidency.”

I’m an American. I, unfortunately, decided that he was the lesser of two evils.  But the state I live in said it was going to be blue instead of red. A very expected outcome. The thing is, this whole thing was so skewed! How did the Democrats think that Hillary Clinton could possibly run against Trump?!?! Bernie Sanders would have assured them of the White House for 8 more years! But no!!!! They gave us the worst candidate of all! So, now we have the equivalent of the Philippines’ President once before…. what’s his name?!?! Estrada! That actor who knew nothing of politics and even less of integrity! It took what?!?! Two or so presidents before the country is where it is today! Then, they voted in Duterte… 

Well, now, at least, when Duterte calls President Trump a “sun above bits”, Trump can really get down and go ghetto on that “sonafabitch”. 

However, all that aside… The working poor, after the election, still had to wake up, go to work and put in the hours so we can pay the taxes that will provide for all of the existing former Presidents and this incoming President elect. 

And we still have to live in the same country we slept in the night before, except things have changed a bit. The followers of Mr. Trump now think they are above the law, that somehow the laws no longer apply to them. Apparently, common courtesy also is gone from these people. Now it is okay to openly sneer at anyone with chinky eyes, dark skins, and openly harass those of a different religion and obviously originated from the Middle East instead of Europe. And this has made people fear. Quite a lot are now thinking about moving to Canada. So many of you, in fact, that the Canadian Immigration website crashed! Seriously?!?!

First, those who are immigrants and became naturalized citizens, if you want to go back to the hellhole you escaped from in the first place… Go right on ahead!!!! Please feel free to do that! I hope you bring back the American ideals that somehow permeates into the marrow of anyone who has lived here for even a short while. I hope you will want to work within that country of yours and try to make it almost or even better than the America you knew. And leave my country because obviously, you never considered this land your land. Nor did you embrace its lofty ideals and its people. 

And to the rest of you… Here is where I stand. I am an immigrant. Naturalized as a young child. Still, I know no other home, but here. I am an American and I freely choose this country as my own. I willingly choose to uphold its lofty ideals and its highest standards. I will fight to remain here and to protect this country. And I suspect that there are many who feel like I do.

In the face of such uncertain times and uncertain circumstances, I believe in the integral goodness of the American people. I believe that a majority of you will not look at the color of my skin or the religion I chose or the sexual orientation I happen to be born in. I believe that most of you would stand up for the rights of others as well as your own. I believe in the honor of the majority of Americans. You want to know why? Most are my friends, my family, my co-workers, my church members, my association members, my club members.

Trump is right, America! It’s time to make America great again! And we have to do it at the individual levels. We have to make sure that our fundamental rights guaranteed by the Bill of Rights and the American Constitution that our forefathers created are not taken away, eroded, diminished. This is your wake up call, America! You have enjoyed so many years of freedom, not knowing the suffering, the sacrifices, the lives given so you may enjoy those rights. You have taken them for granted, this peace, these rights, these living conditions… With Trump in office, now is the time to take up the dusty mantles our forbears have left for us and fight. Fight! Fight! Fight!

Fight for the rights of the future!

Fight for those who cannot fight!

Fight for the rights of all of US! 

Fight!!! Because it’s our turn! 

Teach your children to fight for their rights! It’s not too early to start. It’s not too late either! Start now, start tonight! 

Do not be afraid, America! Do not fear! Face the future with a bright smile and to have courage! We are Americans! We are resilient people! We will not fail the promise we have given to uphold the lofty ideals of the American Constitution and Bill of Rights!

As thanks to those that went before us, we will not allow the privileges fought for to be lost. Not during this administration, not ever…

Halloween Costumes – KPop and Me

I’ve always liked dressing up for Halloween. The more elaborate the better. The most recent times, I’ve been obsessed with top hats. Last year, I was the Mad Hatter. This year…well… I’ll tell you later.

The thing is, at the end of Halloween last year, I wanted to recreate VIXX’s Voodoo Doll concept. 

And try something like this…

Yes, Including Microphone skull thingy. 

So, I go to thinking what else I could try. VIXX being one of my faves has so many!

Cyborgs.

Voodoo Doll as mentioned above.

Dark angel concept.

Their recent one… 

Dark gods concept…

I suppose others could easily pinpoint other groups. And other people. 

Perfect! LOL! 

Or…

The thing is, VIXX has also done wolves…

And a Chinese thingy concept.

I really liked that!

However, back to this year’s Halloween costume. Ugh, I was hoping for something like this…

But instead I have to go in something like this…

Life just isn’t fair!!!!

However, I guess it’s better than these…

Maybe one day, I can pull off this…

I don’t think so. But I sorta pulled this one off.

Too bad it wasn’t Halloween!

On that note…

Happy Halloween!

Yard long beans

My brother and his wife gave me a bundle of yard long beans from his garden. And, of course, that’s dinner tonight.

Cut the yard long beans or if there are no yard long beans, green beans will do as well. About the length of a finger is good. Remove the tips and the ends. Slice onions and garlic. Heat up oil in a pan on high heat. Throw in the onions and garlic and stir fry until fragrant. Then throw in the washed beans. Stir fry for about five minutes until beans are tender. Splash a dash of soy sauce and stir fry one more minute. Add a gauging pinch of crushed red pepper flakes. Stir fry for another minute. Serve with rice!

Asian or Garlic Chives

Bought the Asian chive flower heads from the Asian store. And I was planning on cooking then with eggs. However, some shiitake mushrooms beckoned. And a stir fry was born. 

Stir fry a bit of pork in a hot pan with oil, garlic salt and black pepper. Then add a can of sliced bamboo mushrooms. Then add sliced fresh shiitake and the chives. Stir fry until shiitake is done. Add oyster sauce and crushed cayenne peppers. 

A little note. Shiitake, the fresh mushrooms, work better in stir fries whereas the dried ones work better in soups. Their consistency has changed, you see, once they are dried. Yes, you do have to soak them in water. 

Not only that, but shiitake has a distinct smell to them. Earthy, sort of nutty… It’s not like the button, enoki or oyster mushrooms. 

So, if you do not like the shiitake smell, substitute them for oyster mushrooms instead.

Delicious! Serve with a side of brown rice.