Why?

Why am I not as important
As that which I carry?
When did I stop becoming
A human being?
What have I been so far
That you would curse me
Abandon me And kill me?
For the sake of a tumor
A node, a thing within
That for the life of me
I cannot yet comprehend
This awful portend
Of things changing
A mistake made
in a backyard alley
Lust filled and quickly hasty
There was no thought of tomorrow
And here, I lie amongst you
Broken, trampled on…
Bleeding in a sewer
Because you blocked my path
To getting proper care
And instead pushed me
To a quack with a hanger
In yet another dingy alley…
Was my life of such little worth
That it was sacrificed
For the one I can no longer
defend against all of you?
I had hoped for better
Among people I grew up with
Surely I, too, had a right to life.
Choose life, choose me…
Allow me the choice to live as well…

RhB 20122208 1103A

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KPOP and me – LOST

I was listening to my rotation of Korean Pop songs on the phone. And one came on and for a bit there, I thought it was Big Bang… But it’s not. It’s ‘YEY’ by Beast. And it made me wonder… has the KPop songs become too same?  There is a reason why I gravitated towards KPOP. Because, I felt the American Pop songs currently playing were so the same I couldn’t tell one high pitched singer from the other. They’ve lost their soul.
And I’m wondering if that’s happening to me for KPop as well. I find some notables, but that’s far and few in between. Some days I revisit old loves like James Blunt and Savage Garden. And most times, there is FEVER from Adam Lambert.
Currently, Crooked, Naram Barabwa, Just Another Girl, Jung Joonyoung, Kim Jaejoong… just the old standards. So, yes! I’m getting old. But how I wish I could hear some really good ballads soon. Like Sting.
I hope to discover someone fresh again. Someone I could get immersed into listening to. It seems I’m getting bored. A pity.